hey guess what;

i applied for college yesterday.

I know i'll get in, but it's not where i want to go. I want to go to a school in SC but i can't cause it's too much money.

3-17-10 (happy st patty's day)

My antisocialism is emerging into new territory. The only people I've been spending time with are my parents which, don't get me wrong, isn't BAD, but it's also not GOOD. I recently wasn't invited to a birthday party for one of my good friends. It turns out it was a miscommunication, but it still doesn't feel good to know that people FORGET to invite you to things. Maybe the reason why I'm spending time with family is because I don't want to deal with the repercussions of being the odd duck, the black sheep in my group of friends; I don't want to have to worry about being forgotten.

Is it really because I wear a size 9, while they are all smaller than a 5? because that's the only thing I've found that makes me so different than them.

why boys are irrational, idiotic excuses for human beings.

hey look, I broke my titling system. oh well.

recently, I texted my old best friend/on and off fling of 5 years. We hadn't been talking, so I asked him why not. He told me "because we don't want the same thing". What is that thing that he wants, that I don't want (without a relationship)? sex.

what has this taught me? boys actually DO only want one thing.

what boys need to learn: girls want to feel loved, not just wanted. now, don't get me wrong; saying "i love you" is not an automatic pass into her pants. you can't just say that out of nowhere and expect her to fuck you. making her feel like you are interested in who she is and what she likes is important, even if you don't mean it.

the only girls who have sex without a relationship are sluts and actual prostitutes. Some guys just don't realize this. Telling a girl that you can't be friends because she won't fuck you is irrational and idiotic. End of story.