1-27-10.

Happy Wednesday!

This is the first week of my last semester of high school, and something amazing has happened to me. First, a little background info:

I lost my very best friend during the first few days of junior year because of a bad decision I made with alcohol. She and I haven't spoken a word in 18 months.

I also lost another friend because she was dating my ex-boyfriend and I couldn't handle it.

Now, this week, I realized I am in classes with both of them- in one case, this is the first class I have had with her in high school. Instead of shying away like I usually would, I think I am going to try to repair these friendships. I don't want to end high school with enemies, and this seems like the perfect chance to fix that.

Also, I have purple hair. :}

1-18-10

So I had the second coolest Motion City Soundtrack dream that I've ever had last night. Here's how it went down:

So amelia and I were wandering around the school/mall? and we discovered a huuggeeee group of people dancing and I was like HOLY SHIT THIS IS MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK, MY FAVORITE BAND IN THE WORLD. So I wormed my way up to the front and I knew all of the words to one of JP's songs that no one else knew the words to. So then he fell in love with me. and I told him "Thank you for the chips and salsa. and sour cream. and guacamole." WHILE I WAS SITTING ON HIS LAP.

I literally woke up with a smile.

Listening to the new album, My Dinosaur Life, right now. I'm beyond impressed so far. waiting for my new "Point of Extinction".

1/16/10

First off- I dislike today and everything it means for me as a person. Choosing not to go out with friends in fear of further deteriorating a friendship is not how I want to live, but it is how I am living. I'm going to try to be less afraid of the consequences from now on.

On a happier note,

I'm scouting for the artist I want to do my tattoo. It's not like it really matters, because I'm only getting a music note behind my ear. But I need to make sure the artist is particularly good at music notes because I don't want to end up with something like this, aka cheesy cartoony music notes. ick.

Also, planning a birthday party for me and Shannon, my bestie from Canada. We already have the hotel rooms! This is actually happening! WOO!

one dash thirteen dash ten.

oh hey, guess what?

I turned eighteen on sunday. It was anticlimactic. I mean, you live your entire kid-life thinking about the day you become an adult... and mine passed without notice. I got footie pajamas from my mom and I get to pick out a bike as a present from my dad. Someone's comment: "what are you, eight?"

Well, I don't care. I can wear adult-sized footie pajamas and ride a bike, because eighteen doesn't mean anything. besides, adults who are way older than me do these things as well.

This is the bike I want.

1-9-10.

Well, we have officially been in the new year for 9 days! How does it feel? For me it feels... the same :)

It's finally the weekend, which is bueno. I went to see Daybreakers with my step-sister and a friend last night. It was honest to god the most ridiculous movie I've ever seen. And also the goriest. It had the potential to be a really good movie. I mean, the plot was absolutely fascinating- harvesting humans? WHAAAT?! But the shoddy special effects and equally bad acting made for a film that we ended up laughing at the entire time.

Then we went to Jack in the Box and I had some mozzarella cheese sticks. They were very yummy.

January Fourth.

The word "fourth" has always sounded strange to me. Probably only because we have another word in the english language that sounds like it, and that is "forth". January forth?

Well, I'm lying in bed with the heating pad turned on high because my feetsies are freezing. But my fatso cat is hogging the heating pad so only my toes are really touching it. I need to SparkNotes Heart of Darkness tonight, so that I can half-ass the comprehension Qs. That book was honestly the most boring thing I have ever attempted to read.

I also miss my friends and I can't wait until the 29th of January when my Shannon is coming to town and I get to see her tattoo and we will go get mine :)

January Third.

Today was a strange day. Somehow, my mommy talked me into going to church with her this morning. HUGE MISTAKE on my part. Now all of the church people who have known me since I was a little child are like, "Oh! I am so glad you are back! We have all missed you and are very happy that you have rejoined the congregation!" (basically saying, "We are so glad you are no longer a rebellious little demon!").Well, I have news for all those crazy people. IT WAS A ONE TIME THING. I will never be so stupid as to go to church with my mother again. Then, as we're leaving church, she rolls down my window and says, "Hey look! There's Lindsey!"

Now, there is a story behind this Lindsey girl. When I first stopped going to church about two years ago, she called me every Saturday asking me to start attending again. She started off nice, just kind of asking if I wanted to go and what not. THEN she got angry. She said she would egg my house, she said she would kidnap me from my bed on Saturday nights so that I would go. I could never tell if she was joking or not... but eventually she left me alone.

So Lindsey is about two feet from my car and my window is rolled down and the car is stopped. so I have no choice but to say, "Hi, Lindsey". Her eyes totally LIGHT UP with glee... or fiendish excitement. I'm forced to talk to this crazy woman for about a minute (which is wayyy too long) before my mom finally drives away. Mom apologizes as we drive away: "I'm sorry, I didn't think that would be so awkward".

01-02-2010 (!)

Well.

I have already completely failed one of my goals: to booth every day. I'll just start today and hope that nobody notices :X

01-01-10.

I woke up this morning and was pleased with the resolutions I wrote last night. Then I had some french toast.

Resolutions.

• Keep my room clean on a consistent basis. I am an almost 18 year old girl. I should be able to tidy up my bedroom so it does not appear as though I have no floor.
• Find a home for Henry. Henry is my lovely Jack Dempsey Cichlid. He is a great fish, albeit a bit abusive to the ladies. I got him for my birthday one year ago, but he is just not compatible with my other fish. I need to find him a home, preferably without girlie fish.
• Pick up my camera more often. Okay, you know what I mean by "pick up". Not literally pick up, but USE my camera more often. I purchased this awesome DSLR in the past year, and I barely ever use it for my artsy stuff.
• Not buy as much stuff. I love buying STUFF. Not always for myself, but sometimes yes. I am resolving to not purchase anything I don't need or that I am merely replacing for looks rather than function (i.e., buying a new iPod when my old one works perfectly fine).
• See my Youtubers more often. It is appalling how little I see my friend Adam The Alien, even though he only lives in TACOMA. That is next door compared to many of the friends I encountered in 2009. For example, he said that I would see him before my birthday. But look- birthday is in 10 days! I still haven't seen Adam! So I am resolving to see more of my new friends in 2010.
• Not lose a chapstick for real. yes, I did not succeed in this goal for 2009. I lost a total of 3 chapsticks throughout the entire year. Very sad, indeed. So later today I will go to the store and buy myself a nice chapstick that I will keep for 365 days- unless it runs out.
• Dailybooth every day. I love the concept of Dailybooth, but I am not too good at the "daily" part of boothing.
• Blog every day. This one will be tougher than boothing every day. I am not saying that I want to blog every day to have a diary, or to have a record of what I do every day (although I'm sure both of those things will be covered throughout the year). I just believe that it is healthy to have an outlet for stress, sadness and even happiness that is not another person. Computers, unlike humans, do not get stressed out when you share your emotions with them. They are an unlimited outlet. Which is very cool and nice.

Starting Fresh in 2010.

Hello, 2010.

You are the year that my future begins. I become an adult during your time- in 10 days, actually. I'll also be graduating from high school and beginning college. I don't think you know this, but there is a lot of potential for you. I hope I am able to take advantage of the 365 days you are so graciously giving to me and make sure you are the best year I've ever had.

Love,

Laura

Hello, friends.

This is my new blog! My old one got tangled in memories and arguments, so it doesn't exist to the public anymore. Feel free to read (or not). I trust that we are all mature enough to not play games (i.e. make up fake people) this year? Good, I'm glad we have established this.

Love,

Laura